Ukr. Khitrov Evgen Igorovich
Khitrov Evgeniy Igorevich
Ukrainian Lion
USSR
Ukraine
Krivoy Rog, Dnepropetrovsk region, Ukraine
Medium (up to 72.575 kg)
Evgeny Igorevich Khitrov(Ukrainian Khitrov Evgen Igorovich, born August 18, 1988) - Ukrainian professional boxer, performing in secondary and second secondary weight categories. Honored Master of Sports of Ukraine, 2011 world middleweight champion.
- 1 Amateur career
- 2 Professional career
- 2.1 Battle table
- 3 Awards
- 4 Notes
- 5 Links
Amateur career
Evgeniy’s main success in the amateur ring came in 2011, when he won the World Championship. On the way to victory, Khitrov defeated the Hungarian Zoltan Harcz, and in the final he defeated the Japanese Ryota Murat.
On Olympic Games 2012 controversially lost to local boxer, Briton Anthony Ogogo. The score was 18:18, and Khitrov knocked down Ogogo twice, but when counting the strikes and fouls, the victory was awarded to the Briton.
In June 2013, at the European Boxing Championships, he won bronze medal, controversially losing in the semi-final bout to Irishman Jason Quigley. Evgeniy was much more active than his opponent in the second and third rounds, but the judges again tipped the scales in favor of his opponent, leaving Khitrov with the second scandalous and controversial defeat in his amateur career.
Professional career
In October 2013, Khitrov signed a contract with the American company Fight Promotions and moved to professional boxing. On December 18, 2013, in his debut match, Khitrov knocked out American Christian Nava in the 1st round of an eight-round fight. The fight took place in the second middleweight.
On May 30, 2014, Evgeny Khitrov signed a contract with Iron Mike Productions. At the end of 2014, Khitrov’s contract was bought from Mike Tyson by Lou DiBella’s company DiBella Entertainment.
Battle table
How to read a boxing match results tableThe table lists the results of all boxing matches. Each line shows the result of the match. Additionally, the match number is indicated by a color that indicates the result of the match. Explanation of symbols and colors is presented in the table below.
Fight number | Record | Date | Rival | Battle location | Result | Comments |
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13 | 13(11)-0 | March 5, 2016 | Kenneth McNeil (9-1) | Sands Bethlehem Event Center, Bethlehem, Pennsylvania, USA | UD 10 | Defended the NABF champion title (1st defense of Khitrov). 99-91, 97-92, 97-92. |
12 | 12(11)-0 | October 31, 2015 | Josh Lutheran (14-2) | Circus, Krivoy Rog, Ukraine | KO 2 (10), 1:55 | Won vacant WBC United States (USNBC) and NABF middleweight titles. |
11 | 11(10)-0 | August 7, 2015 | Nick Brinson (17-3-2) | Bally's, Atlantic City, New Jersey, USA | TKO 8 (8), 2:31 | |
10 | 10(9)-0 | April 10, 2015 | Aaron Coley (9-0-1) | Aviator Sports Complex, Brooklyn, New York, USA | UD 8 | 78-74, 79-73, 79-73. |
9 | 9(9)-0 | March 6, 2015 | Jorge Melendez (28-4-1) | MGM Grand, Las Vegas, Nevada, USA | KO 8 (10), 0:42 | |
8 | 8(8)-0 | January 9, 2015 | Maurice Louishome (8-0-1) | Morongo Casino Resort & Spa, Cabazon, California, USA | TKO 3 (8), 0:24 | |
7 | 7(7)-0 | November 21, 2014 | Louis Rose (11-1-1) | Hard Rock Hotel and Casino, Tulsa, Oklahoma, USA | KO 1 (8), 2:35 | |
6 | 6(6)-0 | August 8, 2014 | Willie Fortune (17-1) | Consol Energy Center, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, USA | TKO 1 (6), 0:30 | |
5 | 5(5)-0 | June 6, 2014 | Chris Chatman (12-3-1) | Turning Stone Resort & Casino, Verona, New York, USA | KO 3 (6), 2:18 | |
4 | 4(4)-0 | April 10, 2014 | Jas Phipps (4-2) | B.B. King Blues Club & Grill, New York, New York, USA | TKO 2 (6), 2:07 | |
3 | 3(3)-0 | February 21, 2014 | Julius Kennedy (7-7-1) | Shipley Arena, Westminster, Maryland, USA | TKO 5 (6), 2:29 | |
2 | 2(2)-0 | January 31, 2014 | Romon Barber (4-6) | Harrah's, Chester, Pennsylvania, USA | TKO 3 (6), 0:42 | |
1 | 1(1)-0 | December 18, 2013 | Christian Nava (2-5-1) | Webster Hall, New York, New York, USA | TKO 1 (8), 2:57 |
Awards
- Order of Merit, III degree (2011);
- Honored Master of Sports of Ukraine.
Notes
- Evgeniy Khitrov won the third gold of the World Boxing Championship for Ukraine. Sport Online.ua. Retrieved April 6, 2013. Archived from the original on April 20, 2013.
- Judge for yourself. Scandalous fight Evgeny Khitrov - Anthony Ogogo. Correspondent. Retrieved April 6, 2013. Archived from the original on April 20, 2013.
- European Championship in Boxing. Evgeniy Khitrov is a bronze medalist in the up to 75 kg category. SportOnline. Retrieved June 7, 2013. Archived from the original on June 8, 2013.
- Evgeny Khitrov: “In Minsk the judges “killed” me, Kislitsyn and Poyatsika.” BOXNEWS.com.ua. Retrieved September 22, 2013.
- Ukrainian boxer Khitrov turned pro. Comments.ua. Retrieved October 25, 2013.
- Evgeny Khitrov made his debut at professional ring with a knockout victory. Championship.com. Retrieved December 19, 2013.
Links
- Evgeniy Khitrov - Olympic statistics at Sports-Reference.com (English)
- Evgeny Khitrov on the website BOXNEWS.com.ua
- Amateur fight profile
- Khitrov, Evgeniy Igorevich (English) - statistics of professional fights on the BoxRec website
Khitrov, Evgeniy Igorevich Information About
Evgeniy Khitrov / website
Evgeniy Khitrov- one of the representatives of the brightest generation of Ukrainian boxers, which is conventionally called the generation London 2012. Although Evgeniy was unlucky in London - having arrived in the status of the current world champion in the weight of 75 kg, he ended up with the representative of Great Britain Anthony Ogogo. Behind the scenes of the Games they even said that Zhenya had to be sacrificed in exchange for the loyalty of the judges and the International Federation to the rest of the Ukrainian boxers.
After London, Evgeniy remained an amateur for another year - and received another insult from the controversial judging in amateur boxing. On European Championship 2013 in Minsk in the semi-finals against the Irish Jason Quigley he was left without a victory despite a clear advantage in the second and third rounds.
In the fall of 2013, Khitrov turned professional, moved to America and until the beginning of 2017, changing three promotional companies, with twelve victories. After such a confident career, a painful defeat in a fight with Imanuvel Lim in the fight for the WBC Silver title it was like snowballs for the fans and for the Ukrainian himself.
I don't think. When I started following the news, it was just beginning, about three months ago, I understood that nothing would happen - after all, these boxers are in different types sports McGregor good in the cage, but what will he be like in the ring? That's why I think this fight will never happen. Of course, people would be interested in watching this show. Rumors about their fight are started in order to promote names. They may not fight, but their names should be constantly visible, because the more “publicized” the name, the more more money they give for a boxer.
Do you still want and will it take place this year?
To be honest, I really want a fight with Gena, I respect him very much as a boxer and a person. But drawing conclusions from my last fight, I am not yet ready for the fight with Golovkin - I say this openly. It doesn’t matter to me whether it’s a win or a loss, I go into the ring to have fun. I want to give a spectacle to the audience. But you still need to have at least 5 fights. I don't want this to be a beating.
How many fights do you want to have this year?
The most ideal option is to have four to five fights a year. But I’ll say right away that after this defeat I will have several incoming fights in order to return to my previous level.
Full video of the web conference with Evgeniy Khitrov on XSPORT
Evgeny Igorevich Khitrov(Ukrainian Khitrov Evgen Igorovich; born August 18, 1988, Krivoy Rog) is a Ukrainian professional boxer who competes in the middle and second middle weight categories. Honored Master of Sports of Ukraine, 2011 world middleweight champion.
Amateur career
Evgeniy’s main success in the amateur ring came in 2011, when he won the World Championship. On the way to victory, Khitrov defeated the Hungarian Zoltan Harcz, and in the final he defeated the Japanese Ryota Murat.
At the 2012 Olympics he controversially lost to local boxer, Briton Anthony Ogogo. The score was 18:18, and Khitrov knocked down Ogogo twice, but when counting the strikes and fouls, the victory was awarded to the Briton.
In June 2013, at the European Boxing Championships, he won a bronze medal, controversially losing in the semi-final fight to the Irishman Jason Quigley. Evgeniy was much more active than his opponent in the second and third rounds, but the judges again tipped the scales in favor of his opponent, leaving Khitrov with the second scandalous and controversial defeat in his amateur career.
Professional career
In October 2013, Khitrov signed a contract with the American company Fight Promotions and switched to professional boxing. On December 18, 2013, in his debut match, Khitrov knocked out American Christian Nava in the 1st round of an eight-round fight. The fight took place in the second middleweight.
On May 30, 2014, Evgeniy Khitrov signed a contract with Iron Mike Promotions. At the end of 2014, Khitrov’s contract was bought from Mike Tyson by Lou DiBella’s company DiBella Entertainment.
On January 14, 2017, he suffered his first defeat in professional career, losing by technical knockout American boxer Immanuvel Aliim for the vacant WBC Silver title.
Battle table
The table lists the results of all boxing matches. Each line indicates the result of the match. Additionally, the match number is indicated by a color that indicates the result of the match. Explanation of symbols and colors is presented in the table below.
Fight number | Record | Date | Rival | Battle location | Result | Comments |
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15 | 14(12)-1 | January 14, 2017 | Immanuel Aleem (16-0-1) | Barclays Center, New York, USA | TKO 6 (10), 1:20 | Fight for the vacant WBC Silver title. |
14 | 14(12)-0 | July 21, 2016 | Paul Mendez (19-2-2) | Foxwoods Resort, Mashantucket, Connecticut, USA | TKO 9 (10), 1:20 | Defended the NABF champion title (2nd defense of Khitrov). |
13 | 13(11)-0 | March 5, 2016 | Kenneth McNeil (9-1) | Sands Bethlehem Event Center, Bethlehem, Pennsylvania, USA | UD 10 | Defended the NABF champion title (1st defense of Khitrov). 99-91, 97-92, 97-92. |
12 | 12(11)-0 | October 31, 2015 | Josh Lutheran (14-2) | Circus, Krivoy Rog, Dnepropetrovsk region, Ukraine | KO 2 (10), 1:55 | Won vacant NABF middleweight title. |
11 | 11(10)-0 | August 7, 2015 | Nick Brinson (17-3-2) | Bally's, Atlantic City, New Jersey, USA | TKO 8 (8), 2:31 | |
10 | 10(9)-0 | April 10, 2015 | Aaron Coley (9-0-1) | Aviator Sports Complex, Brooklyn, New York, USA | UD 8 | 78-74, 79-73, 79-73. |
9 | 9(9)-0 | March 6, 2015 | Jorge Melendez (28-4-1) | MGM Grand, Las Vegas, Nevada, USA | KO 8 (10), 0:42 | |
8 | 8(8)-0 | January 9, 2015 | Maurice Louishome (8-0-1) | Morongo Casino Resort & Spa, Cabazon, California, USA | TKO 3 (8), 0:24 | |
7 | 7(7)-0 | November 21, 2014 | Louis Rose (11-1-1) | Hard Rock Hotel and Casino, Tulsa, Oklahoma, USA | KO 1 (8), 2:35 | |
6 | 6(6)-0 | August 8, 2014 | Willie Fortune (17-1) | Consol Energy Center, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, USA | TKO 1 (6), 0:30 | |
5 | 5(5)-0 | June 6, 2014 | Chris Chatman (12-3-1) | Turning Stone Resort & Casino, Verona, New York, USA | KO 3 (6), 2:18 | |
4 | 4(4)-0 | April 10, 2014 | Jas Phipps (4-2) | B.B. King Blues Club & Grill, New York, New York, USA | TKO 2 (6), 2:07 | |
3 | 3(3)-0 | February 21, 2014 | Julius Kennedy (7-7-1) | Shipley Arena, Westminster, Maryland, USA | TKO 5 (6), 2:29 | |
2 | 2(2)-0 | January 31, 2014 | Romon Barber (4-6) | Harrah's, Chester, Pennsylvania, USA | TKO 3 (6), 0:42 | |
1 | 1(1)-0 | December 18, 2013 | Christian Nava (2-5-1) | Webster Hall, New York, New York, USA | TKO 1 (8), 2:57 |
Awards
- 2011 - Order of Merit (Ukraine) III degree;
- Honored Master of Sports of Ukraine;
- 2015 - Badge “For Merit to the City” (Krivoy Rog) 1st degree.
Sports achievements
Amateur
- 2011 World Champion.
- 2013 Bronze medalist of the European Championship.
Evgeny Igorevich Khitrov(ukr. Khitrov Evgen Igorovich, genus. August 18, 1988) - Ukrainian professional boxer, performing in the middle and second middle weight categories. Honored Master of Sports of Ukraine, 2011 world middleweight champion.
Amateur career
Evgeniy’s main success in the amateur ring came in 2011, when he won the World Championship. On the way to victory, Khitrov defeated Hungarian Zoltan Harcz, and in the final he defeated Japanese Ryota Murata.
Professional career
On May 30, 2014, Evgeny Khitrov signed a contract with Iron Mike Productions. At the end of 2014, Khitrov’s contract was bought from Mike Tyson by Lou DiBella’s company DiBella Entertainment.
Battle table
The table lists the results of all boxing matches. Each line indicates the result of the match. Additionally, the match number is indicated by a color that indicates the result of the match. Explanation of symbols and colors is presented in the table below.
Fight number | Record | Date | Rival | Battle location | Result | Comments |
---|---|---|---|---|---|---|
14 | 14(12)-0 | July 21 | Paul Mendez (19-2-2) | Foxwoods Resort, Mashantucket, Connecticut, USA | TKO 9 (10), 1:20 | Defended the NABF champion title (2nd defense of Khitrov). |
13 | 13(11)-0 | March 5 | Kenneth McNeil (9-1) | Sands Bethlehem Event Center, Bethlehem, Pennsylvania, USA | UD 10 | Defended the NABF champion title (1st defense of Khitrov). 99-91, 97-92, 97-92. |
12 | 12(11)-0 | October 31 | Josh Lutheran (14-2) | Circus, Krivoy Rog, Ukraine | KO 2 (10), 1:55 | Won vacant NABF middleweight title. |
11 | 11(10)-0 | August 7 | Nick Brinson (17-3-2) | Bally's, Atlantic City, New Jersey, USA | TKO 8 (8), 2:31 | |
10 | 10(9)-0 | April 10 | Aaron Coley (9-0-1) | Aviator Sports Complex, Brooklyn, New York, USA | UD 8 | 78-74, 79-73, 79-73. |
9 | 9(9)-0 | March 6 | Jorge Melendez (28-4-1) | MGM Grand, Las Vegas, Nevada, USA | KO 8 (10), 0:42 | |
8 | 8(8)-0 | January 9 | Maurice Louishome (8-0-1) | Morongo Casino Resort & Spa, Cabazon, California, USA | TKO 3 (8), 0:24 | |
7 | 7(7)-0 | November 21 | Louis Rose (11-1-1) | Hard Rock Hotel and Casino, Tulsa, Oklahoma, USA | KO 1 (8), 2:35 | |
6 | 6(6)-0 | August 8 | Willie Fortune (17-1) | Consol Energy Center, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, USA | TKO 1 (6), 0:30 | |
5 | 5(5)-0 | June 6 | Chris Chatman (12-3-1) | Turning Stone Resort & Casino, Verona, New York, USA | KO 3 (6), 2:18 | |
4 | 4(4)-0 | April 10 | Jas Phipps (4-2) | B.B. King Blues Club & Grill, New York, New York, USA | TKO 2 (6), 2:07 | |
3 | 3(3)-0 | February 21 | Julius Kennedy (7-7-1) | Shipley Arena, Westminster, Maryland, USA | TKO 5 (6), 2:29 | |
2 | 2(2)-0 | January 31 | Romon Barber (4-6) | Harrah's, Chester, Pennsylvania, USA | TKO 3 (6), 0:42 | |
1 | 1(1)-0 | December 18 | Christian Nava (2-5-1) | Webster Hall, New York, New York, USA | TKO 1 (8), 2:57 |
Awards
Sports achievements
Amateur
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Links
- - Olympic statistics on the website Sports-Reference.com(English)
- (English) - statistics of professional fights on the site BoxRec
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“I got up late and woke up and lay on my bed for a long time, indulging in laziness. My God! help me and strengthen me, that I may walk in Your ways. I read Holy Scripture, but without the proper feeling. Brother Urusov came and talked about the vanities of the world. He talked about the new plans of the sovereign. I began to condemn, but I remembered my rules and the words of our benefactor that a true Mason must be a diligent worker in the state when his participation is required, and a calm contemplator of what he is not called to. My tongue is my enemy. Brothers G.V. and O. visited me, there was a preparatory conversation for the acceptance of a new brother. They entrust me with the duty of a rhetorician. I feel weak and unworthy. Then they started talking about explaining the seven pillars and steps of the temple. 7 sciences, 7 virtues, 7 vices, 7 gifts of the Holy Spirit. Brother O. was very eloquent. In the evening the acceptance took place. The new arrangement of the premises contributed greatly to the splendor of the spectacle. Boris Drubetskoy was accepted. I proposed it, I was the rhetorician. A strange feeling worried me throughout my stay with him in the dark temple. I found in myself a feeling of hatred towards him, which I strive in vain to overcome. And therefore, I would truly like to save him from evil and lead him onto the path of truth, but bad thoughts about him did not leave me. I thought that his purpose in joining the brotherhood was only the desire to get closer to people, to be in favor with those in our lodge. Apart from the fact that he asked several times whether N. and S. were in our box (to which I could not answer him), except that, according to my observations, he is incapable of feeling respect for our holy Order and is too busy and satisfied with the outer man, so as to desire spiritual improvement, I had no reason to doubt him; but he seemed insincere to me, and all the time when I stood with him eye to eye in the dark temple, it seemed to me that he was smiling contemptuously at my words, and I really wanted to prick his naked chest with the sword that I was holding, pointed at it . I could not be eloquent and could not sincerely communicate my doubts to the brothers and the great master. Great Architect of nature, help me find the true paths that lead out of the labyrinth of lies.”After this, three pages were missing from the diary, and then the following was written:
“I had an instructive and long conversation alone with brother V., who advised me to stick to brother A. Much, although unworthy, was revealed to me. Adonai is the name of the Creator of the world. Elohim is the name of the ruler of all. The third name, the spoken name, has the meaning of the Whole. Conversations with Brother V. strengthen, refresh and confirm me on the path of virtue. With him there is no room for doubt. The difference between the poor teaching of the social sciences and our holy, all-embracing teaching is clear to me. Human sciences subdivide everything - in order to understand, kill everything - in order to examine it. In the holy science of the Order, everything is one, everything is known in its totality and life. Trinity - the three principles of things - sulfur, mercury and salt. Sulfur of unctuous and fiery properties; in combination with salt, its fiery arouses hunger in it, through which it attracts mercury, grabs it, holds it and collectively produces separate bodies. Mercury is a liquid and volatile spiritual essence - Christ, the Holy Spirit, He."
“December 3rd.
“I woke up late, read the Holy Scripture, but was insensitive. Then he went out and walked around the hall. I wanted to think, but instead my imagination imagined an incident that happened four years ago. Mister Dolokhov, after my duel, meeting me in Moscow, told me that he hopes that I now enjoy complete peace of mind, despite the absence of my wife. I didn’t answer anything then. Now I remembered all the details of this meeting and in my soul I spoke to him the most vicious words and caustic answers. I came to my senses and gave up this thought only when I saw myself in the heat of anger; but he didn’t repent enough of it. Then Boris Drubetskoy came and began to tell various adventures; From the very moment he arrived, I became dissatisfied with his visit and told him something disgusting. He objected. I flared up and told him a lot of unpleasant and even rude things. He fell silent and I only realized it when it was already too late. My God, I don’t know how to deal with him at all. This is due to my pride. I put myself above him and therefore become much worse than him, for he is condescending to my rudeness, and on the contrary, I have contempt for him. My God, grant me in his presence to see more of my abomination and act in such a way that it would be useful to him too. After lunch I fell asleep and while falling asleep, I clearly heard a voice saying in my left ear: “Your day.”
“I saw in a dream that I was walking in the dark, and suddenly surrounded by dogs, but I walked without fear; suddenly one small one grabbed me by the left thigh with its teeth and did not let go. I began to crush it with my hands. And as soon as I tore it off, another, even larger one, began to gnaw at me. I began to lift it and the more I lifted it, the larger and heavier it became. And suddenly brother A. comes and, taking me by the arm, took me with him and led me to a building, to enter which I had to walk along a narrow board. I stepped on it and the board bent and fell, and I began to climb onto the fence, which I could barely reach with my hands. After much effort, I dragged my body so that my legs hung on one side and my torso on the other side. I looked around and saw that Brother A. was standing on the fence and pointing out to me a large alley and a garden, and in the garden there was a large and beautiful building. I woke up. Lord, Great Architect of Nature! help me tear away from myself the dogs - my passions and the last of them, which combines in itself the forces of all the previous ones, and help me enter that temple of virtue, which I achieved in a dream.”
“December 7th.
“I had a dream that Joseph Alekseevich was sitting in my house, I was very happy, and I wanted to treat him. It’s as if I’m chatting incessantly with strangers and suddenly I remember that he can’t like this, and I want to approach him and hug him. But as soon as I approached, I see that his face has changed, it has become youthful, and he is quietly telling me something from the teachings of the Order, so quietly that I cannot hear. Then it was as if we all left the room, and something strange happened. We sat or lay on the floor. He told me something. But I seemed to want to show him my sensitivity and, without listening to his speech, I began to imagine the state of my inner man and the mercy of God that had overshadowed me. And tears appeared in my eyes, and I was glad that he noticed it. But he looked at me with annoyance and jumped up, stopping his conversation. I became afraid and asked if what was said applied to me; but he didn’t answer anything, showed me a gentle look, and then we suddenly found ourselves in my bedroom, where there is a double bed. He lay down on the edge of it, and I seemed to be burning with a desire to caress him and lie down right there. And he seemed to ask me: “Tell me the truth, what is your main passion?” Did you recognize him? I think you already recognize him." Confused by this question, I answered that laziness was my main passion. He shook his head in disbelief. And I, even more embarrassed, answered that, although I live with my wife, on his advice, but not as my wife’s husband. To this he objected that he should not deprive his wife of his affection, and made me feel that this was my duty. But I answered that I was ashamed of this, and suddenly everything disappeared. And I woke up, and found in my thoughts the text of the Holy Scripture: There is light in man, and the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness does not embrace it. Joseph Alekseevich’s face was youthful and bright. On this day I received a letter from my benefactor, in which he writes about the duties of marriage.”
“December 9th.
“I had a dream from which I woke up with my heart fluttering. I saw that I was in Moscow, in my house, in a large sofa room, and Joseph Alekseevich was coming out of the living room. It was as if I immediately found out that the process of rebirth had already taken place with him, and I rushed to meet him. I seem to kiss him and his hands, and he says: “Did you notice that my face is different?” I looked at him, continuing to hold him in my arms, and it was as if I saw that his face was young, but there was only a hair on his head. no, and the features are completely different. And it’s as if I were saying to him: “I would recognize you if I happened to meet you,” and meanwhile I think: “Did I tell the truth?” And suddenly I see that he is lying like a dead corpse; then he gradually came to his senses and entered with me into a large office, holding a large book, written on Alexandrian sheets. And it’s as if I’m saying: “I wrote this.” And he answered me by bowing his head. I opened the book, and in this book there was beautiful drawing on all the pages. And I seem to know that these paintings represent the love affairs of the soul with its lover. And on the pages I seem to see a beautiful image of a girl in transparent clothes and with a transparent body, flying towards the clouds. And as if I knew that this girl is nothing more than an image of the Song of Songs. And it’s as if, looking at these drawings, I feel that what I’m doing is bad, and I can’t tear myself away from them. Lord help me! My God, if this abandonment of me by You is Your action, then Thy will be done; but if I myself caused this, then teach me what to do. I will perish from my depravity if You forsake me completely.”